Pond in Barcelona

I know this is a bit of an obvious statement but, I live in Spain. It amazed me to think that I have been here for more than a month. This isn’t a vacation. It wasn’t a “Vegas Baby!” kind of trip where you party as much as you can. I moved here to live here for a while, to figure out what I am looking for and to seek it out. It was simple…I wanted to take my life and move it somewhere for a while.

The good news is I might have found it. The bad news is I might have found it and it is thousands of miles away from what I call home—Seattle.

Some of you may know that I have a love/hate relationship with Seattle at the moment. Aside from my friends, I don’t know if I like Seattle—doesn’t feel like the city for me. When I’m in Europe, I feel at home. I get more work done, am more social and have lost weight since I’ve been here. I like the lifestyle here a lot, especially in Barcelona. I love the fact that there is time for everything here, the design and art is so inspirational and it is so easy to just hop on a plane or train to go to another city or country.

I would be lying if I said I thought about not coming back. Hey, the girls actually like me here, why wouldn’t I think about staying here?!

However, I have my cat back home and I love him too much to just leave him with my parents. Maybe I need to fly back and get him back here—sail the word with a cat—now that’s an adventure you can take to the bank.

I have been doing a bit of research on what it would take to work with US clients from here. Right now I’m just flirting with the idea. Typically I don’t like to talk about my plans or waste time with saying what I’m going to do, but I am at quite a bit of a loss right now. My friend Alix did make the suggestion of living in Seattle as the “home base” and traveling the rest of the year. I actually like that quite a bit.

To be completely honest, I have some anxiety in returning to Seattle:

  • I’m afraid I’m going to revert back to my bad habits.
  • Really going to miss my friends in Europe.
  • Seattle is a very comfortable city. I’m afraid if I come back, I might just stay there.

I have a lot of thinking to do. There is still plenty of time here and very much to see. My plan was to come back to Seattle as a better person and there is a lot of work to do there.

The truth is I don’t even know why I dislike Seattle. Everyone else who lives there seem to love it and think it’s the greatest city in the galaxy. Like relationships with people, perhaps there is a compatibility factor with cities. I thought being gone for so long would make me miss the city I once loved.

Maybe it’s time for a change…whether it’s the city or myself.